Meditation and crying :)

I have been trying to meditate by myself, all alone since past few days. Most of the times my mind is wandering. I still try focusing on my breath.And there is a moment when the cluttering thoughts diminish.
Gradually i experience a sweet spot when i start crying, not out of pain but immense joy. i just cannot stop myself. There is this intense feeling of gratitiude. Gratitude for everything i have and much more than i need - caring and loving family who shower me with blessings and comfort me without any expectations, most adorable and loving friends who encourage me and listen to me patiently, knowledgeable and fearless mentors who guide me towards discipline,truth and kindness with their unborrowed visions, comforting extended families overseas and many others.

I feel like i am indebted to so many people for so many things. All those strangers for simple yet touching act of kindness, the ones who give me a smile when i cross the road, give me a ride in a completely unknown place.
The kids at Shwas who accept our love and welcome us so warmly, people at wednesdays who accept us the way we are, welcomes with a big heart and directly or indirectly helps us grow and teach 'to be' just be present in authentic present.

This takes me back to an incident at Ekatva retreat which was profoundly powerful and had sown seeds of gratitude. After the three days Ekatva retreat at Sughad when i came back home and saw my grandparents - i hugged them and started crying. It was out of gratitude. I called up my daddy and cried for half an hour just expressing gratitde and thanking him for all he has done and my mom has done for us.Right from the labour pain my mom had experienced before delievering us'the twins' to giving us the liberty to choose our path to live life, encouraging us in our journeys and imbibing strong values that would stay with us and help us stay strong during tough times :)


This process makes me more strong because it makes me realize i need to pay all this forward!

Love <3

Link below, for one of the dhuns(Vahiguru), which according to Guru Nanak’s testament to the Sikhs is explicated as: Vah is wonder at the Divine might; gu is spiritual darkness while ru is illumination brought to eliminate this darkness

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VOVbRVImbhI